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as i sit here and witness everyone & everything around me i realize that nothing is going to change. everybody is still going to have their attitudes say what they want to say try to bring you down and make everyone around them miserable and i hate to admit it but i have been brought to a place where i dont think i can bring myself up from. i just want time to go back to when my life was full of tears of joy and not sadness i want my life to be full of happiness and prosperity . i want to backwards not forward because im scared of what the future holds

2009

2009 had to be the most stressful year of all my life. People chose to do and say things they didn't mean every one decided to choose my life path for me and could care less of how I felt or what I wanted. I kind of gave up on the world because the world gave up on me. I tried and tried to let things go and just live day by day but still the thoughts of all the arguments.. tears.. frustrations.. hatred.. loneliness.. misunderstandings.. and all the other feelings and emotions I went thru that just destroyed the real me. I wish and hope that 2010 will bring so much more joy and happiness to my life so that I can get back to being the outgoing.. amiable.. likable.. happy-go- luck.. sociable.. loved by every one person that I was known to be.

lalala

I love it when I'm with you because nothing else matters. We may have our moments but which couple doesn't. Nobody seems to understand why we are together but I can care less because its about us not them. they wonder what I see in you because they just don't understand you are my everything. I love you like I've never loved before. You are like the only person that I can go to whenever I have a problem. You showed me the meaning of love and I appreciate it so much no other dude matters and that's because I know how true this love is. C & K 2.14.08 <3

my first

I don't really do this but I just need to let some of the things I keep inside out. Since life has just been so crazy for me this year I have figured out ways to just keep to myself. Some people notice that I have changed but they just don't understand why and seriously I could care less because if I tell you then all you're going to do is talk about me so why should I waste my time explaining. I am new to this blogging thing and I'm kinda afraid to say some things because I'm not sure of who is going to read it but eventually going to get over this feeling and just write everything I feel..